Weeks 6 & 7

I AM TIRED.

I just thought I’d start out with that. I can’t stress it enough!

How far along I am: 7 weeks, 2 days.

Baby length: 0.56 to 0.8 inches, or 1.4  to 2 cm. TINY BABY. Comparable to a raspberry.

Baby weight: <1/10th of an ounce, or <2.8 grams. NEARLY WEIGHTLESS.

How I feel physically: TIRED! I fell asleep at 7PM today. Thankfully Matt asked me something so I jumped back up. I keep catching myself falling asleep everywhere. I never sleep in the car, and I fell asleep sitting up. Matt has been getting up with Lily every other day, so I’ve been sleeping in, but I feel like that doesn’t make a difference. I don’t want to do any chores! Normally I zoom through everything without a problem. Now I just want to sit on the couch and watch T.V.

NO NAUSEA. Don’t jinx me.

I’ve had a few normal aches and pains. The occasional back ache. Some achey stretchy pulls from my hips to my belly.

I’ve also had some sore leg muscles- something I forgot about from Lily’s pregnancy. My leg muscles always were sore- like I exercised too hard or something. I know this is just a precursor to the leg cramps. UGH. I’m not looking forward to them!!

My knees are sore often just from daily stuff. Lately they’ve been worse. I can’t really bend down with them, so when I bend over to pick up Lily, I end up lifting with my arms and back. I’m going to have to figure out a better way to do that.

Also, no boob anything. A few quick zingy pains, but that’s it. With Lily, my boobs got huge and sore at six weeks. My boobs are being lazy.

How I feel mentally: Well, I’ve cried today. I cried yesterday, and the day before. I feel sad. I know it’s because of my whacko hormones and because I feel so exhausted. I cry about everything. Not fun. I’m trying to reel my emotions in, but honestly, I don’t care. I have the right to be sad! I have a lot to deal with and I HATE change.

I also feel incredibly unprepared emotionally. I’m not sure if a homebirth is going to happen. I’m not sure if I’m going to have the strength to fight for the birth I want. I feel like I’m going to be walking up a river. I  don’t know if I have enough energy to keep going. I need a huge amount of constant support, and I’m not getting it. No one really knows how much support I need. I am tired. And sad.

What I’m taking: A prenatal from Walmart. I’m not sure the brand. I just picked it up while we were there. I was going to grab some vitamin B12, but the prenatal already has some in it. I might start taking fish oil for my knees. I’m hoping that will help. Ouch.

Birth/Baby Preparations: Nothing, except I go to my doctor’s appointment tomorrow. I’m nervous. I have a ton of paperwork to fill out. I don’t really want to go. I sort of surfed around a bit looking for a bedside sleeper. I’ve looked up some wraps and some teething necklaces.

Girl or Boy?: I have no idea. Some people know. I am not one of those people. I have a feeling it’s a girl, but I think that’s because I already have a girl, and I mentally prepared for a girl. When I picture myself with a baby, I picture a girl. I have yet to sit down and think about myself with a baby boy. I’m not even interested in knowing. I’m fine with either one. I would just need to get a bunch more boy stuff if it is a boy. The baby doesn’t even have discernible genitalia yet!

Names?: I really love Luna. I know that a lot of people will be like, what? Luna? For your baby? A lot of my family is into traditional names. I think my love for the name might fade though. Graham for a boy. Matt is stuck on that one. I like it, but I don’t love it. I know we could do better. I really settled on Lily, so he promised me this one would really be my pick. I’m looking for a strong male name. Really strong. Like Caesar strong. Like Augustus strong. Not either of those, but you get my point. Not like Aiden or Conner or a weak name. We like Owen, but I feel like it’s a little name. Like if we had a premie, I’d name him Owen. Matt doesn’t understand my reasoning AT ALL. Oh well. I use Nymbler.

Other pregnancy related news: Did I mention how tired I feel? That’s why I didn’t do a separate 6 week post. I missed that deadline…I’m so tired I don’t even feel like blogging! Hopefully this fatigue let’s up soon so I can get back to the regular me.

Matt’s younger brother, Tim, and his girlfriend, Kaia, are also pregnant. She is due June 8th. They are doing great, and her first appointment is tomorrow, too. They like Garrett Adair and Millie(Mildred? I don’t know) Iris for names.

Other random news: Lily has been super lovey with me, which is not normal. She is clingy! I’m fine with that. We fell asleep together on the couch yesterday. We’ve failed so far at weaning her off her bottle. I am having trouble taking it from her. She still feels too young for me. She will throw her bottle out of her crib if it’s watered down.

I started reading the Twilight series. It gives me an opportunity to relax and be entertained. T.V. sometimes makes me nauseous. I’m already on the second book. I’d recommend them to some people. Definitely younger people. They are catchy- they(well, at least the first one) keeps you wondering a lot, which keeps you reading. This second book is dragging on. I’m only on like the 150th page, but I’m considering giving it up. I’ll let you all know.

My computer’s memory is full, so I can’t upload any pictures. I need an external memory thingy.

Anyway,  I’m done. Baby name ideas are welcome!